Need to keep calm

Our news: Saturday, April 23 - Sunday, April 24, Kyiv

All this time we are experiencing deprivation. However, the biggest loss for me is the feeling of calm and peace. The anxiety that we constantly experience does not allow us to perceive reality normally. Even when there is no shelling and a day off, a sunny day, there is no guarantee that it is really quiet and relaxing. This anxiety destroys everything, destroys all the colors of life, and drowns out all feelings.

Considering that this weekend was the Orthodox Easter holiday, we planned the first family meeting in these two months. My father, my sister, and I agreed to meet at my mother's grave. In March, we could not visit the cemetery on the day of her death.

On Saturday, April 23rd my sister baked a small cake that my mother loved and we also bought her favorite flowers. On Sunday, for the first time, we all got together and visited my mother. It was a sunny day and there was no shelling at all. However, this silence still does not give calm. I was amazed that we all aged a lot, probably by five years.

For a long time, I began to notice that all the people around me began to look much older. Now I realized that this also affected our family. My father was quite cheerful all these days, only once he showed emotions. And the second time it happened yesterday at the cemetery. However, I have not had any emotions for a long time. I just hold on and support others.

Everyone wonders why I'm always so calm. However, I also do not have peace, there are simply no feelings anymore.

On Roxy's condition: This year I saw what hormonal behavior is. It's time to grow up for Roxy too. It is unfortunate that this is happening this spring. This is a double load. Yesterday my princess did not want to go into the cage in the evening for a very long time. She screamed loudly and showed aggression. Chamomile tea no longer helps.

About the situation in Kyiv:

There is still no heat and it is very cold in the houses at night. There are more people and cars on the streets of the city. Many residents of Kyiv were in churches and cemeteries this weekend. We all hope for a miracle, but it hasn't happened yet.

Thanks for your support and prayers. We send you love and hope! XoXo

P.S. Thank God that this Good Friday there were only minor annoyances, without bad consequences.

Best wishes,

Sergii & Roxy